NOT a Moment SOONER
At times I have tortured myself asking “Why did I wait until I was 50 years old to move and change certain things in my life?” It is self-torture… because that is NOT the question…
The truth is it happens when it happens ...
It happens NOT a moment SOONER.
It can’t.
Life unfolds like a flower. Your life and my life unfold like flowers. We bloom at the moment in which blooming will offer the most chance for success. Buds don’t bloom in winter or in arid dryness if they can not survive. They don’t bloom when they would look the prettiest from your window. (as if I could control this)
They bloom when bets are good for success, as if their life depended on it (and it does),
How do the seeds know this? Who knows? I’m sure some botanist has studied the chain of events that has to happen before the bud opens … as if when we dissect the biology beneath - we make it ORDINARY … as if this is NOT (f@ckin) MAGIC!. Yea, well it IS MAGIC!
A calla-lily in my backyard that surprised us by blooming on it's own ... the previous residents must have planted it... or else it grew WILD! (awesome possum!)
It’s the reason my heart ached when I lived in Minnesota and I couldn’t have Spring in March… how waiting until May for the ground to really warm and the trees to come to life… was agony. It is the magic of Spring ... it is the MAGIC of life, why one egg is fertilized and life erupts. Thousands of seeds in the ground and only a SELECT FEW will bloom.
We are like seeds in this way, you know?
In our life there is the agony of Fall and letting something go, and the stagnation of Winter, and the moment of awakening… like a mirror to Spring.
So many beautiful things have to happen for us to blossom… for us to awaken … and BONUS! unlike a single seed, we can do it so MANY times in our life.
AND (Sweet Jesus - I’ve started saying this… and kinda like it) we do it when the time is right and not a moment sooner. Ahhhh, the PEACE ....
If you are reading this, likely you have had this moment… in the Process or elsewhere in your life.
The perspective is NOT about the timing … the perspective is ...
“HOLY SHIT! Me? I’m THAT seed! and the time is NOW?”
and then can come a deep deep sense of gratitude … that we were one of the lucky seeds! That we were part of something magical.
That we bloomed …
that we bloomed when chance were best for us to THRIVE …
and we can do it again and again …
(sweet Jesus)
